Simplicity.

2010-07-04T01:05:00.000+08:00

I HAVE NOTHING MORE TO SAY.

2010-02-02T02:12:00.002+08:00

time takes away my youth.

my youth to do everything that i always have wanted.

to do things professionally.

all those things i dreamt of doing, can never be realised.

i always hoped that i could find a way to compromise.

the middle point where everyone can be satisfied.

but it just doesnt happen. for me that is.

if u say life is not fair. yes i do agree with it.

i may be more financially able than some people.

but that doesnt mean i can do wat i want and wat i love.

if only so many things were different.

if only i could still be where i used to be.

all those, would have made a big difference in my life.

i just wanna thank everything that happened.

if not for them i would have not met you.

disappointed but satisfied at the same time.

2010-01-04T03:06:00.001+08:00

dont know why.
but i somehow got dejavu feeling.
the one that i sworn not to feel it again.
im afraid and i hate it.
i am so trying to change the way i handle things.

but im just too impatient.

-- Post From My iPhone

2009-12-26T03:01:00.002+08:00

it's when i lost faith of trust

it's when i could not stay put on one

i walked into a new life

and fate had led me to meeting you

although it wasnt the best of first impressions

each of our characteristics got us in tuned

some quality time that we have spent

it all were enough to put us two together

it was the moment i got the assurance

that there is a perfect someone for me

you

2009-12-04T02:09:00.002+08:00

why does things get bad when i thought it's supposed to get better?

is this normal? or is this just the start of worse things?

always looking forward to coming back home to "see" her.

but might end up in something bad.

didnt want to feel this way.

i love you that's why i asked.

i wouldn't have cared if i don't.

2009-11-24T00:22:00.003+08:00

she's the one that makes me happy

she's the one that makes me smile

she's the one that completes my day

she's the one that i want

she's the one that i long for

she's the one that i want to spend the rest of my life with

she's the one that i love.

she's the one that makes me shed tears

she's the one that makes everything invisible

she's the one that makes me think to myself

she's the one that cause sleepless nights

she's the one that makes me ponder

she's the one that makes me feel that i can give up the whole world just for her.

she's still the one that i love.

2009-11-20T01:40:00.000+08:00

first lonely night after so long.
it's been awhile since i spend the night alone.
wonder how, what is she doing right now.
holding back the thought of texting her something.
even if it's just a 'miss you'
doubt any of us can go through this night.
wishing the future is near so that i would spend every single night fall and sun rises with you endlessly.

now i realise i can't do without you girl.
now i pray hard that we could be forever.
ever.

2009-11-08T17:22:00.001+08:00

i dont know how long this is gonna last.
without the sense of security.
dont even know where i stand.
its a hot and cold thing going on.

am i just an accompany?
am i just a tool?
am i even anything to you?

sighs

2009-09-20T22:44:00.002+08:00

the feeling to have lose something beats the hell out of me.

sort of having all these deja vu once again.

and if it ever happens again,

i dont know what is gonna happen.

i dont wish to lose you. anytime, forever.

put

2009-09-18T20:04:00.001+08:00

now im starting to understand why people want to be single rather than being in a relationship again.
havent been in the best of mood nowadays.getting irritated by the smallest thing even.tried to play it down but sometimes just cant help it.
ask me if i love her and i will say yes for sure.adding on love her alot.but when it comes to patience, it's never there for me.
is this what i want in a relationship?
sometimes i dont understand why she have to say somethin when with me but another when infront of others.
sighs. just wanna rant out watever shit that im feeling.
even all these happen, i do still love her as much as day1.

2009-09-01T03:13:00.002+08:00

almost a month been thru.

it maybe short but loads have happened.

they were meant to be, so i understood and could cherish u more.

always see the stronger side of u in light.

but after tonight,

everything was poured, i could see all in your eyes.

you long to be mine, and i do in return.

it's a promise that i will never break.

i love you.

2 aug

2009-08-03T12:34:00.000+08:00

it's another step up my life.
been awhile since ive gotten into a relationship.
hope this one is my last.
been so paranoid about everything after what have happened in the past.

now that i have learnt to cherish what ive got.
will never take things for granted anymore i hope.
please bless this one right now.

2 aug 2009.

2009-07-21T03:14:00.002+08:00

cant even go thru just a short day/night
without the craziness that usually tires me off to sleep.
the ever so fast depleting batteries of my phone,
is now fully charged almost the whole time.

i reckon' im in a serious shit right now.
once i thought being single is the best damn thing.
now that it comes, it just won't go even i try to forget about it.
3 years?am i even able to hold on for that long? i dont know.
after all that had gone through, i seriously am doubting myself.

there must be something going on,
a planned surprise?i really appreciate for your effort.=)
but i wont be a jackass to spoil the plans. just go with the flow.

putri ♥

2009-07-01T00:21:00.002+08:00

hah~!
its just the first night of the whole 3 weeks and im already feeling shit.
just felt like everything's missing.
the sound of your footsteps, the late-night noise that we make.
the sudden turning off of my room lights, the pinching of each other's cheeks.
and ofcourse you yourself.

never thought it would turn out like this. never thought it would make such an impact on me.
but the smell of you in front of me always cheers me up even when im down.
im officially missing you.

2009-06-29T00:30:00.002+08:00

just wanna vent some stuff out of my mind right now. dont care if u dont understand it.

just wanna say that, it is unnecessary to act like that i think.

we didnt know u were having exam at first. u could have came up to us and told us nicely.

we do understand. we have brains too, fuck.

u shouldnt have punched the wall.. do u even know wat trouble u have gotten us into even?

why do u create even more trouble now? have u thought things thru before doing watever shit that uve done?

fuck off mate.

2009-06-24T01:09:00.002+08:00

finally after ages. im updating this blog again.

been having exams and assignments, eating up my time.

my laziness caused a big trouble too. havent been attending lectures and some tutorials.

2 exams are over,

which means im left with just 1..on thursday, 25th june...

didnt think i did well for the first 2 exams. esp for the first subject.

im afraid i failed that subject because i didnt achieve the required pass for the labs.

ive got only 14 out of 30 marks. sighs..

and the 2nd exam was just shitness, open book but u just cant find the answers in lectures or tutorial notes. which means its the shittiest thing ever. XD

and the last one. which is industrial automation,

thought it was easy at the start of the semester, cos its just PLCs stuff. underestimated it.

never touched lecture notes or tuts until 2 days ago. and i found out there were alot of other kind of things that i have to study.

just hope tmr will be enough to study all. pray for concentration.

things isnt going very well for some things.

dont understand somethings and hope it will turn out just fine.

been thinking of the worst, but i hope it wont happen.

cheers to myself. hah!

(i myself dont even understand wat the hell am i talking about, but heck. XD)

missing the times that ive spent with my mates back in sing.

esp the night outs with my pri sch mates.

really hope i can go back there soon and spend some time with them. =)

my brother too.the one and only ah pui. XD.think he wants to come over to aussie when he's having his holidays. haha!

bet we'll have big shit of fun if he's here. (looking forward)

anyhoo,gonna go study again.

lucks for all people! =)

2009-04-20T00:26:00.003+08:00

easter's break is finnaly over!
tmr's a new week of uni again. argh. it sucks to the core.
wish if it is holiday allllllll the time. hahaha.
life's gonna be so messed up if it really is. XD

as i said, good and nice things are worthed the wait and hard work,
so that when u finally get it, it's worthed it!! it's so so true.
just imagine, i had my road trip awhile ago, and it was superb!!
but if u were to do it every single day, i reckon' it's gonna be so tiring and boring!

anw, my brain and all is kinda feeling very messed up right now.
that's why i had messeduppieceofshit as my email. cos im always messed up!!
so freakingly easy to be affected by others' feeling. and i really hate it.
people getting moody all of a sudden cos of the end of holidays, im affected by it too.
sometimes there are just more things that i hope that i can do and say to cheer people up.
but it's just will never be enough.

sometimes i think to myself..wat a wasteful life have i been living...
what have i ever done to make my life better? what have i been doing all these while?
what's the purpose of living? what are we living for? and what should i start doing right now?

sighs. i just miss my parents right now..

2009-04-11T01:30:00.002+08:00

oh gawd.oh gawd.
suddenly feeling in such a dilemma.
dont know how am i supposed to face it.
dont even know wat should i do about it.

sometimes in life u think u already had all that u wanted,
but at the next morning u realise otherwise..
dear god, please help me solve this situation?
or maybe just give me a clue on wat i should move towards.

2009-04-02T02:51:00.002+08:00

omg!

im starting to feel the time passes really slowly.
please fast forward to august!
and let it stop there forever..
for i want to spend the rest of time at that moment.

when it finally come,
let the smiles come pouring in..
be the best of time.
i just cant wait! GROAR. XD

2009-03-30T23:05:00.003+08:00

just a small update on what's going on with my life.

hmm.let's start off with uni.

lazy as ever i would say. but getting worried bout things here and there.

hope my lazyness wouldnt go worse.(something i have to work on!)

hmm.the semester's moving real fast. it's already week 5!!

almost half of the semester gone already.

time never waits(something i always say in my updates.and its VERY true.)

so, MAKE THE MOST OUT OF YOUR LIFE! =)

have started playing around with photography and photoshop thingy.

it's FUN when my creative juices flow. but when it's not, THINGS DO FRUSTRATE ME ALOT! HAHA! scary eh? XD

my fav and "beach-est" work is being used by someone as a blog backgound! haha.

ohyeah! i got myself a nikon D40 for my birthday present! so happy!! heehee..

was really cheap at that time so got it before the sale is gone.. =P

hmmm.kinda late to continue on writing stuffs.

so gonna go to bed right now! tmr's lessons are early! hope i can wake up XD

tata!

2009-03-09T21:30:00.002+08:00

last few moments of my "stepping forward" day

no more small boy as of now on. haha!

my feelings of being 21 years old?

hmmm, i still feel as lively and as young and as noisy as always!

it doesnt feel any different at all.

cept that when people ask how old am i,

i would sigh and tell that im 21! wahaha(and give the evil laugh when they tell me i dont look like it. hohohohohohohohoho)

haha!

my first birthday in melbourne with new mates (and they are all indonesians.)

just like usual, birthdays are usually smelly one.

this time round, thankfully i wasnt tied to a tree.

but was showered with rotten food mixed in water and sprite. -.-

the smell could kill anyone i swear.

freaking hell i swear i gonna have a revenge on sumone someday!

at a time i was dreaming of my own 21st birthday party.

it's here finally and its gonna end soon too.

wat a messy entry today. XD

just like my brain.all messed up already.

wished u were here.

2009-03-04T00:34:00.002+08:00

a late night post of a new month.

its so funny how i always contradict myself.

happens every now and then.

tells myself something but ends up otherwise.

is it supposed to be like that? idk.

watever the reason is,

for now wat i hope to have is a lasting one.

its gonna be harder than ever i know, but i will try in every possible way.

i dont want to lose again.

2009-03-02T20:52:00.002+08:00

feels like whoa!

holidays have ended! at long last.haha.

been slacking almost every single day. ha!

thats wat we always do when we have holidays dont we? =P

the feeling of missing sumone real badly is back again!

it wasnt as bad when i first came to melbourne. haha.

maybe there were other things that i had to worry about when i first came.

argh. this really kills.

tmr's the start of the new semester.

already thinking of the holidays now!haha. =P

2009-02-13T03:26:00.003+08:00

i am getting bored of writing updates AGAIN.

this update is written because of LAO. XD.

kanasai. got pedro voucher oso never share. XD

wahaha.

anw.im back in singapore already.

after a month of enjoying+suffering+slacking+spending alot of money in indo.

been thru heaven and hell i tell u.(that's just exaggerating)

HELL PART:

heehee.anw on the 2nd day im back there i ate the local nasi padang that was bought somewhere by my maid.

then, that night itself, my stomach got freaking uneasy and spent the night on the toiletbowl.(LAO-SAI-ing that is.)

hmm,the day after wasnt as good either, drank medicines and all but made me felt even weaker.

so had to spend days sleeping. not eating cos i dont have any appetite.

then went to the doctor for a jab in the ASS CHEEK.(made my ass felt numb for awhile.LOL.lucky no shit flew out.XD.)

dammit, i was supposed to feel better after a night sleep but then my stomach still wasnt as well as it should be.(still lao-sai-ing)

anw im too lazy to carry on with the story but well, i still havent fully recovered.

THE HEAVEN PART:

not really the heaven part actually,

it's just how lives in indonesia usually is for the chinese(chinese are known to be more wealthy than the locals.)

had chauffeur to drive me and my cousins around to shop and play.

hmm.bedroom tidied by maid when u wake up. food always ready.dont have to take drinks urself. all the things u can think of done by maids(more like servant).ofcourse leave bathing, washing ur ass after u shit to urself(and other personal stuffs)

life's like that in indo,u've got money, hire a few people to help u do ur chores, and enjoy life.

and their pay is really cheap,say around 1-200 bucks per month i guess.

simply been slacking all the way when im in indo when im supposed to go to my dad's factory and learn. but my stomach didnt let me to. XD

aww gosh. time really flies dont u think.

my 3 months of holiday is almost up.and i'll be going back to melbourne.

sighs.the next time i'll be back will be next year, same time, if i get a job here that is(for internship) urgh.if not i might as well say goodbye to singapore till i have my own money and holiday to come back.

THAT SUCKS.

to think i have to work in around a year's time.SIGH

2008-12-07T03:16:00.002+08:00

HELLLLLLLLO WORLD.

it's my 2nd week ++ ive been here in singapore.

this just shows how fast time really flies.

been meeting with people that ive missed.

not all of them tho, everybody's busy with their own stuffs.

hope to meet them more often! XD

anw went to watch a play that shaiful directed,

the usual Yellow Chair productions.

this time its "judgement day"

i would say it has got nice story lines and potentially good actors

BUT, i thought this play was supposed to be a more serious one,

instead of the comical shits.

yes it made the audiences laugh their asses off, but i thought it was just too much.

after that went to mr ahlex's house!!! weeeeee.

after so long, we're back there again. but this time with sherman's newly found lurveeee.

dammit u NBCCB, got girl already then dont want this buddy of urs. XD

anw, both ashley and alex wrote me a song each. teehee.

was... touching.i didnt expect them to do this kind of thingy . thx heaps!

had the usual jamming session. was fun as ever! aww god how i miss those songs.

there were new songs too! tho i didnt come up with one. XD.

ehhh. we even looked thru the photos and videos that we took.

MEMORABLE.

it was indeed the one of the best moments of my life.

hmm.missed them the moment i left them. haha!

this bunch of friends i have is really that fun.

i wish i could,

but we move on with time.

happy memories that we can share.

thx for the memories.

2008-11-21T02:06:00.002+08:00

1st night back in singapore..

my heart just couldnt stop pumpin, feeling so nervous about meeting everybody.

ive met sherman, ashley and aaron.

feels really nice chatting around with them again.

but this time we couldnt stay up too late because everybody's got their own schedule tmr.

they're all moving on.

im missing the living room+kitchen+dining room madness in dandenong house.

where we would be together with our laptops, surfing facebook, watching vids.

now im here in my old room, AGAIN..dark and lonely(cause my bro and cousin are asleep. XD)

writing all these shits.

SINGAPORE IM BACK!

2008-11-10T17:47:00.001+08:00

The difference between quality of performers in singapore and in australia.

XD.

FUCKING AWESOME...

Australian Idol

2008-11-09T14:52:00.002+08:00

somehow or rather,

my interest in going back singapore faded away.

the die-hard vball enthusiasm seems to fade off together with it.

im sure i will have alot of fun in singapore.

BUT, the others are either in NS or are in school.

weekends are the only time i can meet up with them.

1 of my housemates went back to indo alr.

we wont be housemates anymore when i come back here cos she and 2 others are moving out.

thats not a good thing.

2 new housemates will be moving in tho.

dont know if it'll be as much fun or not.

anw.just a lil update on my side.

still having the exams stress. my last paper's on the 13th.

wish me luck for the last 2 paper.havent been studying really hard.

kinda afraid i wont be able to do the questions.but still.

IM LAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. XD

2008-10-28T22:28:00.002+08:00

My WISHLISTTTTT:

TOP OF THE LIST WOULD BE GOING TO MANCHESTER!!

DAMN. NOW I REGRET NOT GOING TO UK...

COS AUSSIE SUCKSSSSSS COMPARED TO UK ..XD

LOL.

LETS GO BACKPACKING SOME DAY !!!!!!!

ANYONE?

2008-10-28T10:07:00.002+08:00

2008-10-25T01:44:00.002+08:00

hmm.
been so busy studying for my exams...
i mean "study" study..
wahaha. been awake till 4 or 5 am almost everyday.
and sleeping till 4 or 5 pm everyday. XD
LOL..this is just so wrong..

was browsing thru the DVDs mr ahlex gave me..
there was vids and photos and such.
made me miss the SPLAT rehearsals and HIHS musical rehearsals so damn much.
then slowly i went thru all the photos i used to take.
rehearsals, with volleyball peeps, poly classmates, FREAK sec school life and the nvr forgettable innocent pri school life..
sighs.i wonder if i will meet those people that i lost contact with again..
even tho wasnt very close to all of them, but life wouldnt be as fun without them as well.XD

i want a roadtrip with my friends so much!! just a get-away from city life and spending days together and stuffs like that.
or or a volleyball camp!! playing volleyball day and night.
I SAW A VID OF OUR VBALL CAMP ON YOUTUBE!!!!
a short on tho..wonder who posted it up..it was so fun!! gosh.
sorry to say but i doubt if we have a volleyball camp with the current players, it wouldnt be as much fun as how it used to be. im sorrrry! i dont know why but i just think so.XD

im getting fat!!! ohmy!! not having a weighing machine at home can be disastrous!!
all the eating and all.i havent been doing much exercise lately!!! goshh..this is so bad.
no wonder my housemates said i look different from my photos even tho they were taken earlier this year!!!!LOL!!!!
i am so D-E-A-D! wahaha.XD

do you miss me? do you miss me?do you miss me??XD

2008-10-14T13:51:00.002+08:00

2008-10-13T17:09:00.000+08:00

FUCK i cant get it to turn clockwise...
-.-...
my right brain is dead.

2008-10-11T00:17:00.006+08:00

1st of all im gonna start this post by saying
TODAY's a GREAT DAY..XD
seeing hot girls almost everywhere i go!! XD
oops.

anw i had a haircut.
its niceeeeeeee.i like it...but i cant spike my hair if my hair is long.
-.-.. that sucks.

lalala.i dont know wat else to say.its 3.24am now and im still here talking crap.
its 3.25am
3.26
3.27
3.28
3.29
3.30

XD. i got nothing better to do.. i guess imma go get some rest..
OHYA..i bought a cap, a shirt and a polo tee today too!!
fun day i would say.lalala.

2008-10-07T21:02:00.002+08:00

omy omy omy.
i received my first ever credit card.XD
ITS A CREDIT CARD NOT A DEBIT CARD...WAHAHAHA
YAY!!!!=x
so fun..
ebay here i come! XD.LOL

anw, ive moved to my new place for about 4 days now.
been alright.cept smaller room, have to share the place with more people,
and fucked up(MATURE CONTENT WARNING.XD) internet connection.really.argh..
new housemates are lovely too.=)
more indonesians! damn..im improving my indo instead of english over here!
hahaha.maccas is right opp my place!cool eh..wahaha.supper supper and more supper!XD.

i guess its time to take up another sport now!
vollyball isnt really very popular here.(WHY WHY WHY..)
i'll.....improve on my skating!!XD.slalom and slides!!
bought a bag that can hold my skates..gonna skate once in awhile at the nearby park after sch sometime..
argghh. think gonna stop here. needa finish up my assignment.
ciao..

2008-10-01T23:05:00.002+08:00

Oh-My-God.
just by scrolling down my blog,
it shows how much time has really passed..
i had a blog since sec 4, during the euro cup season,
i remembered updating my blog with all the results and shits.

then this blog came when something unpleasant happened.
i felt really silly reading all the stupid things that i wrote.
i swear to myself that i wont ever be that person that i used to be again.
at that period of time, i promised myself to be a much better volleyball player.
did i achieve that?i dont know.i cant remember how badly or how good i was before that.

then after 3 months, the beauty of life re-appeared.
that didnt last long tho, still isnt really sure, but i nvr regreted anything.
sweet memories i guess, thinking back about it makes me smile sometimes.
didnt really have anything to be sad about.

life still went on as usual, and i remembered getting close to many great people, whom are so far now a bunch of the many real good friends i have.
not one, but many of them, i would never had gotten this close to them if all those things didnt happen at all.

3 months..
its been almost 3 months ive been spending my time in australia.
to be honest, im not as happy as i used to be!
thx to the exemption ive got, ive missed so many things that could have happened in uni life.
for the 1st time i dont belong to any club! HOW SAD IS THAT. argh. no activities after classes, small group of friends.
im so missing the life in NYP, where friends are all over!! XD

but i aint gonna give up yet tho.ive found out RMIT has got a volleyball team!
and im gonna go for the trials and join the team AND GO FOR COMPETITION!!!!!!!!!!
XD..i so want to do it badly.Australian University Games 2009 here i comeeeeeeee

2008-10-01T18:43:00.001+08:00

LOL!!!!
BE WARNED... THIS BLOG CONTAINS ADULT CONTENTS..XD

THIS IS SO FUNNY..XD.

2008-09-27T16:59:00.002+08:00

just some random post..

2 of my fav dance routine from SYTYCD season 4.

extraordinarily COOL costume!!

my 2 fav dancers, twitch and courtney WITH MY FAV SONG !! XD

2008-09-27T00:25:00.002+08:00

I BET ITS SO HAPPENING IN SINGAPORE RIGHT NOW!!!
F1 RACE IS IN SINGAPORE DAMMIT...
WHY WHY WHY..
i cant even see the track myself...damn...
by the time im back in sing, everything will be taken down i guess?
ANYBODY WENT TO WATCH??? SEND ME PICTURES CAN???XD

i cant wait..i cant wait..i cant wait..i cant wait..
I CANT WAIT TO GET MY HANDS ON MY BIKEEEEEEEEE.
FYI, i bought a 2nd hand bike for 500 bucks..
which would have costed me 2k+ if i bought a new one.
OMG...i cant wait... XD.

sighs..30th oct would be my 1st paper, 12th nov-2nd paper, 13th nov-last paper...
i cant go surfing!!! damn..stupid exams...aRGH.

2008-09-24T22:33:00.002+08:00

yet another "I CANT SLEEP" post.

uni life has been really hard, much harder than i thought it could be.

things no longer go like how poly used to work.

no more lexturers scolding you, chasing you for assignments, etc.

everything has to be done BY YOURSELF.

nobody to remind you(cept your friends).

the most ridiculous thing is that labs arent taught anymore.

you have to find ur own way to do it!!

tutors wont even tell u if its correct or not. gahh.

and for every lab u have to do a report. DAMN! that sucks real bad..

somehow or rather for the first few weeks i managed to cope with things.

just because the things to do are still the basics..

I CANT DO LABS MYSELF ANYMORE. wahaha.im so stupid.. i have to check the internet for solutions myself. argh...(this happens if ur friends doesnt understand too)

XD.

AND THE WORST THING IS THAT I HAVE EXAMS IN A MONTH TIME!!!!

i havent started preparing..GOOD LUCK to me-lazy-bum.

2008-09-14T21:36:00.002+08:00

weeks after weeks after weeks.
starting tmr, its week 8 already..
ive been in melbourne for 2 months!!
gosh, cant believe its so fast..

i reckon exams are in week 13..
5 weeks to DOOM. i havent really prepared myself for anything.
just like usual, i will wait till a week to exams before i start studtying. XD
lazy lazy lazy..

1/2 more month and i will be moving out to another house..
hope house mates will be still as friendly..=D

2008-08-29T00:25:00.002+08:00

so not a good day at all for me..
it's one of the days where actually everything that goes around me,
is just annoying.
watever that is supposed to be annoying in the first place,
GETS EVEN MORE ANNOYING.

argh.there're always these kind of days..i hate this.
why cant there be something to cool me down.
even as i type this entry, i am hitting my keyboard so hard that i think its gonna break into 2.
freaking hell.
XD. bad mood bad mood bad mood.
ITS ALL BECAUSE OF THE STUPID INTERNET MONTHLY LIMIT!!!
IVE REACHED MY LIMIT AND THEF REAKING INTERNET IS DAMN SLOW.

2008-08-22T23:21:00.003+08:00

alright...
so ive been watching this comedy tv series show that i got from my friend
IT WAS AWESOMEEEEEE..
seriously best tv series ever!!my favourite right now.
i've finished watching the WHOLE 3 series of it.
NOT MISSING ANY episode. XD.. how cool it is? yeah? yeah?
it's "How i met your mother"
title's weird, didnt want to watch it at first..
but yeah, i got hooked the moment i watch the very first episode.
its about this dad telling a story to his kids(which is also the viewers),
his story of how he met his mom..hmmm.BUT,
the more imp part of the story is about this bunch of 5 friends,
well, it was 4 but 1 came in slightly later.
having gatherings at the bar everytime chit chatting bout fun stuffs and their life.

seems a really cool thing to do yeah?
yeah, i hope i will have that kind of life too. thats the best kind it could get.=)

anw, i wanted to introduce about this guy named Barney stinson in the show.
HILARIOUS GUY.not the main character, but leaves a freakin deep impression i tell u.
(the best part is that i found out that he is gay when im searching for these videos im gonna post.)
SUCKS big time.i mean, he doesnt act like he's a gay a single bit.
here's my fav phrase of the whole show.

It's Gonna Be LEGEN- wait for it - DARY!!!

late at the show, barney lost his "wingman" to pick up girls so when he got this new guy..
(This is so not the way u do it.. HILARIOUS.if u watch the show.)

LOL..anw, check this show out if u have time yeah??
big big recommendation from ME.

2008-08-10T22:19:00.002+08:00

TADAH!
im finally here again.LOL.

aniway, its been 3 weeks++ that im here in melbourne!
im starting to love this place more, (that is if i have a car! XD)
because... the nearest bus stop to my house is 15 (fast)walk away!!
darn!! every morning i have to wake up so freaking early to go campus.
AND MY CAMPUS IS IN THE CITY...
WHICH MEANS ITS AN HOUR JOURNEY THERE!!! URGH..
sucks.

tmr's monday.. back to studying again..
i will be having my mid semester exam soon..
in around 2weeks time..(1 semester here only consist of 13 weeks).
arghh.im so not prepared!!

been thinking of transfering to another uni which is nearer to my house.
but if i do transfer, i dont think i can grad in 2 years time..sighs.
HOW HOW HOW!?!?!?!?!?

DIE...my parents sure kill me.XD

I WANT TO MIGRATE HERE NEXT TIME AFTER I EARN BIG BUCKS!!
THIS IS HOW NICE THIS PLACE IS!!
I WANT A BIG HOUSE WITH BIG GARDEN WITH BLAH BLAH BLAH.
LOL..AND ENJOY MY LIFE! WOOOOOO
IM GETTING CRAZY..HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
LOL

2008-08-06T17:31:00.002+08:00

its 6th of august!
which means winter's gonna be over soooooooooooon!!
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
for now i HATE winter to the core..
it makes one become lazy to wake up in the morning.
especially crawling out of warm bed!
URGHHH

LOL!

2008-07-30T22:35:00.002+08:00

its been ?? days since im here in aust.
haha.i seriously cant be bothered to count it. really.
almost 2 weeks i guess? sighs.

at first everything looked fine and all.
i was fine being alone and all.
i was kinda irritated when my mum worried so much bout me.
duh..she's my mum afterall, i cant blame her.
now that im all alone, i miss the feeling of being with a family. XD
fidel, chester, harvey, and my brother, kervin. used to be the 'stress reliever'.XD
i used to feel much better after playing around with them or stuffs like that.

HIHS musical songs just keep looping in my head.
lalala.
i need to find sumthing to kill time.
give me suggestions!!! XD

2008-07-18T01:40:00.000+08:00

last night over here in singapore.
kinda excited bout going over tho.
hmm.but dont worry. i'll miss every single one of u guys.=)
thx for the nice memories

2008-07-15T13:45:00.002+08:00

fate...

is this my fate,

to be lonely

like so?

is it my fate,

to feel this way?

fate...

fate in my

eyes is why im stuck

like this, it was

my fate to love you

so.

morgan evans

2008-07-06T19:33:00.002+08:00

it's over..

the so-look-forward-ed gathering with the cast from HIHS musical is now over.

it's always so fun being around them, their laughters never fail to make me smile.=)

he's out..

my pri sch friend, namely chen zhenting has finally booked out and met up with us.

he lost his ever-so-long hair already!XD. and to be honest, he really slimmed down quite abit.

he's going in..

one of my best buds, sherman foo zhi yuan, is finally going in to NS this coming wed.

like we were saying, i would look forward to go to australia to study if he goes tgt.

THERE'LL BE CHAOS I TELL U. XD.

i would still want to be involved in musical productions in the near future.

SHAIFUL, MR AHLEX !! i want to be a part of it!! wait for me to come back yea!?

this period of time has taught me to really treasure friendships..

it will need a pair of hands to make a clap.

just like friendship, both parties must make an effort in order to keep it going.

2008-07-03T11:17:00.003+08:00

feeling damn fucked up now.

got woken up by miss calls and smses from my mum.

dont know wat she wants from me again. so i didnt answer them.

she called thru house phone and made my uncle wake me up.

the first thing she asked me was "why are u so irresponsible?"

nothing i could recall..

i seriously dont know wat the hell she wants from me.

yesterday i told her that i could get tickets for 18th july. i booked them and confirmed it.

this morning she told me to get tickets for 14th july, fine enough. tho i didnt understand why she wants me to change the date over and over again.

at first i got tickets for 16th july for myself. then after i confirmed my tickets, she told me to book 2 more tickets for her and my dad. so since 16th july slot is full, i had to get 18th july.

in the end she called me in the morning shouting at me about changing the date to 14th

bah. damn fuckedup.now she wants me to stick to 18th of july.

seriously got no idea wat the hell is she thinking.

2008-06-29T01:08:00.004+08:00

at long last,

everything has ended..

the HIHS "i want to be a star" musical was a BIG success..

the feeling of seeing the kids performing at their best..

is unbelievable.. all the welling up of eye bags.

i couldn't help it..

they are the star tonight, and im feeling so happy for them.

we all hate it when it comes to the end of the production,

"why does it have to end so early", asked the kids.

sighs. i wanted it to go on forever too if that is possible.

call me emo boy or watsoever. HA!

im starting to miss their laughters already.=(

i so love the kids! =(

this is wat im left with for the memories..

2008-06-27T02:48:00.002+08:00

hmm..

i hate time.

i waits for no one. how selfish can it be.

sighs.

its 2.41 am friday 27th of june.

today will be the last day of rehearsals with the HIHS kids.

tmr is the big day for everybody!!

gosh.everybody's feeling the heat yo!!

to think about it, this production started some time in march.

from strangers to friends.. the journey have been really stressful for some.

namely alex, the director, miss shaedah, the music director..

sighs.loads of things happened during these 3 months, and ive seen the kids grow.

from some lovely kids into a well-prepared "performer"..

its been real nice working with them.. lots of fond memories..

im beginning to love musical productions even more.

all the things that u learn from it, really unexplainable.

if there is 1 wish that i could make,

i would want to work with mr alex wang in a full production again..=)

i'll wait for the day to come.

2008-06-08T04:20:00.002+08:00

sighs.

FUN always ends in a flash.

its another day closer to me leaving singapore.

counting down period will begin real soon.

date me out pleaseeeeeeeeeee.

hahaha.

sighs.

2008-05-31T02:57:00.002+08:00

here i am again..(while u guys who read my blog will be thinking "not again?")

i know..im always here again..

almost every single night, i would spend my time in front of my computer,

doing nothing but surfing the net, hoping to find something to read about.

say, updates on other people's life, sports update or watever shits.

its always the same!! the "signed in yet so quiet msn"

i HAVE so many contacts in my msn, but seriously, i think i only talk to a handful of people.

hmmm, unfriendly? guess i just dont have THAT much thing to talk about.

spends time with myself thinking bout things..

at this very moment i see myself change ALOT in a year's time..

a few days before my 19th birthday,i was spending my 1st few days in my fyp lab,

at that time, i just broke up with my ex girlffriend..

"hell" is wat i describe it ..

i wont want to get back into that state i swear..

its then i met my fyp mates, namely sherman, whom im closest to.

after all those babe hunting sessions, magic performances, heart to heart talks.

watever..it sounds kinda gay i think.=x

a lot memorable moments i had in that short 1 year time i must say..

*takes in a deep deep breath...

time really flies..

i miss those study times, i miss those dating times, i miss those training times...

i am gonna miss alot of people..people who made my life brighter.

2008-05-29T02:45:00.002+08:00

believe it or not..
im looking forward to go to australia..
i dont know why..this is some weird feeling i have.

for the first time in my life i really have accepted the fact that im leaving my friends.
ALL my friends. life's gonna be so different over there.
sighs..people will miss me (i hope..XD) haha. im sure i will miss everyone too.
all those fun and all those shits that happened..

now i really have 1 big big wish or dream that i hope it will come true in time..
i will quickly finish up my studies in aus, which is 2 years.
then i will go back indo to start my business and earn bucks!
by the time i hit 30 years old, i would have enough money to migrate over to say australia or some other place..
at that period of time, i REALLY REALLY hope that all my friends will come and join me there and start our own business..
well, that's just my big big dream..
not everybody will migrate over, but hopefully most of them will..
like how we planned..=)

im working towards that day..finally i know wat i want in life and wat i aim for..
and i kinda like this feeling for now..
let's see wat happens in 10 years time..=)

2008-05-28T02:46:00.002+08:00

had a big tiff with my aunt yesterday..

okay..so things went like this.
i lent my DS to my cousin months ago, telling him that he have the responsibility to take care of it.
and now when i need it back, they cant find it.
my aunt tried to protect my cousin by saying that my brother took it and didnt return it back.
when he actually never have touched the DS..
freaking annoyed, cos everytime things get missing, the 1st person my aunt suspect would be my brother.
she's being freaking unreasonable,
for the 1st time in these years i shouted back at her trying to protect my brother..
feeling damn fucked up..
dont know wat my brother owed her..but she always complains bout my brother.

hmm.
when adults get unreasonable, the young always have to bear with them..
my patience have it's limits too.. u went too overboard this time..

2008-05-15T00:33:00.002+08:00

are you even listening?!?
when u ask me wat i long to be ??
i would say i want to be a star, i want to be a happy man leading a simple life,
i want to be someone to live life happily with my friends...
do you even care??

you would just tell me that why be a star??
being a star doesnt earn u much..
you would just tell me that why lead a simple life??
do you want to work under other people??
you would just tell me that why need old friends??
you can always make new friends back in indo..

all the answers i give you, will never satisfy you...
the one and only thing that u wanna listen is that,
"i want to take over your company, make your company even bigger and earn hella loads of money"

the what's the point of asking me wat do i long to be..
and to think you would always say that no matter wat i choose, you would support me.
hah. wat a joke, wat controversy..

you know ive been doing performances for a period of time,
have you ever asked how is the performance??
have you ever asked can you watch it??
i doubt that even came across your mind..
i can so clearly see the picture of myself in your head..
im wearing a suit, with a master's in engineering, swimming in a pool of cash.
i hate it when u always think about money.
sighs.

wat can i do?? to choose watever is a better choice..
i have only 1 dad and 1 mum in this life..
if i ever disappoints them, who else is going to take the responsibility??
friends? sighs.i love you guys as much as i do love my parents.
please understand me.

2008-05-09T22:42:00.003+08:00

ended another day of work.
was working at M1 paragon..the store damn big la!but there were only samsung booth. -.-
sales was kinda bad today.not really many ppl buying phones today as they're waiting for the weekend offers..
tmr's another day of work.will be at bugis roadshow..
hope it will be okay..

mum called me up and asked about the Uni reply.
told her bout NTU's rejection. can hear that she was kinda disappointed.
seriously affected my mood now.feeling so moody and down.
dont know wat i should do too..this sucks.
arhhh..dammit.. someone tell me wat to do..

just had an argument with my mum.
most of it is my fault i understand..i didnt do any back up plan or watever.
if only u will understand wat i want to tell u..
"taking over ur business is not wat i wish for."
"ive been quietly leading the life u want me to without having much compaints."
"i have just always wanted to be wat i want to be and not wat u want me to be."
"ive always been under pressure all these while."
"i just want to be me."

2008-05-04T00:42:00.002+08:00

weeeeeeeeee..
im gonna be rich for this month la!!(not very much, but still earning money!)
1st and formost im getting my cheque for the night job at fort canning with sherman.
2nd, im currently working as a samsung phone promoter.
3rdly, i'll be involved in a sony ad photoshoot my director is taking..
4thly im being paid for my performances..
5th, i will be helping out at HOM(hear of musicals)..

weeeeeeeeeee..the start of may has been damn good!!!
never have i been so packed for the whole month before.XD
anw im currently at suntec singtel roadshow..
working there have been tiring but really fun..
loads of new friends, loads of crap talking to customers!
damn..if only i get my Uni reply...WHY ARE THEY TAKING SO LONG!!!
argh...so scared that i cant make it.sighs.

sighs.somethings are just meant to be.
i just have to accept it as it is. i've got nothing to regret too..
i already tried my best..

tmr will be the last day working for the singtel roadshow.
feeling kinda sad that i wont be talking crap with them anymore..
somehow or rather i could feel sumthing from some of them.
hmm..sorry yea.i just dont know how to react to that.

2008-04-24T00:27:00.002+08:00

as i walked the walkway..
faint memories of school days struck me..
i can still hear the laughters of my classmates..
i can still feel the eagerness to perform well in competitions..
but just as i come to realise,
i am already a graduate of nanyang poly..

three years just passed like a sec..
im missing all my friends.

2008-04-19T02:25:00.003+08:00

it all started off with planning of throwing one of the emcees for club crawl 2008 in to the pool.....

then the swimming pool became a warzone! Haha!!
people were thrown into the pool.. both the dry and WET ones.(meaning they're pushed down into the pool countless times.XD)
damn happening la..the whole bunch of us were just aiming for people to throw into the pool.
not the freshies of course. but i bet they were damn scared too.XD

it's been a really fun event..=)
club crawl has always been a fun event for all! =DD
an event where we make new friends, have fun and ofcourse advertising ur own clubs.

fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun
and more fun.XD
will never forget this day.=)

2008-04-12T05:15:00.002+08:00

so here i am again.
writing nonsensical stuffs that are running thru my mind..
5.17 am..
when people are struggling to get out of the comfy bed..
im here writing all these stuff..(WTF?)
yea, i know..its crazy..but everytime i lie on my bed, i just cannot stop thinking..
must be thinking wats all the things that're keeping me awake uh?
just stupid thoughts of mine..
something like... wats going thru her mind right now?
how is she doing?
blah blah blah..

life doesnt suck at all.
instead im enjoying my life more than i used to be when i was attached.
i am VERY confused right now..
to go? or not to go for it??
i dont wanna get attached and dedicate my time for a girl,
on the other hand,
i just wanna to be with her..
its called the CONTROVERSY, dammit!!

well, things seems to be fine in the other part of my life.
im now an ATD for a musical play "i want to be a star"for HIHS 50th anniversary.
for your info ATD = assistant to director..
and, i might even be a part of the new company that my director gonna start.
well, if i were, i would have to specialise in something to be able to help.

sighs, why cant everything go fine for me?
bwahaha.im freaking greddy ain't i? =P
think i'll just have to talk to her about it.bleah. make a time for it..

2008-04-11T02:15:00.002+08:00

sighs.
i guess it isn't working out as i thought i would be.
kinda feeling down but happy at the moment..
weird uh. i thought so too.
affected by it?? hell yeah.. but i guess i just have to stop thinking too much about it.
and move on of course!
sighs.

trying too hard isnt the way how its supposed to be lah i guess..
haha, silly me.. im still having hopes that things might just suddenly make a 180 deg turn.
and everybody is happy =)).hahaha.
hmmm..
anw... like wat i said, no matter wat happens, dont ever let it affect ur happiness! smiles always=)

2008-04-07T02:48:00.003+08:00

so i spent the whole day at home today..
guai right!! hahaha.didnt spend a single cent today!! weee!!
im saving money ..=))

been thinking for the whole day luh.
so ive come to a conclusion..that is.. to let nature takes its own course!
i've been trying too hard(i thought) to make things happen.
so i guess its time for me to slow down my pace a lil.
and maybe blahblahblah. i ain't gonna say too much of details in here.
ask me if u wanna know..i'll see if i wanna tell u or not.=PpP

a gallery of photos taken during MR.AHLEX's birthday..(fun!)
http://family.alex-wang.com/Gallery/v/Alex_Birthday_2008/

2008-04-06T02:24:00.002+08:00

so finally im back into my own space, my own room, my table, in front of my own fav past time(my computer.=P)
it's been really a busy week for me and some of my friends.
it seemed like everything got squeezed all together into a week.
SPLAT - touring schools to perform early in the morning. DAMN, we have to reach sch at 6.30?
my parents are in town for that short 3 days 2 nights.
HIHS "i want to be a star" rehearsals..
alex's birthday.
a meet up with her.

so, i spent most of my nights over either at sherman's place or alex's...
so i hope u kinda understand why im finally back at my own place..
busy i may be, i had fun.=)
then i came to realise i havent been to trainings for awhile alr..sighs. can i have more time a day?
next week's trainings are on monday, tuesday and thursday...
hope i can make it for all.=))

things been going fine for me and her..(that's what i thought.and i still hope it is)
sherman, i thought about what u told me luh. and i think it's correct to some extend.
im just trying to hold on to what i believe in.it ain't easy coming all the way to this stage.
to contradict myself, im having a mixed feeling.
DARN!!why does this happen.

argh..wat am i doing seriously??
im just being an asshole here..
just hafta make a choice..

2008-03-21T07:19:00.000+08:00

“Nothing More” Jules

Is there nothing more to life
Than shampoo and guys?
Is this all there is to life?

Is there nothing more to me
Than what people see?
Is this all that I am

I don’t want to be… who I am anymore
There’s got to be more in life to live for
Life won’t always be… so easy and nice
Sometimes, someone you know… dies

I don’t want to live… live this life anymore
There were times for fun, but now those times are done
Is this all I am… the one and only ah lian?
What if, I said, I wanted to be more?
Is there nothing more?

Maybe I have got it all wrong
This thing about life and living
Maybe what they say is all true
That life’s not something you can sleep through

I don’t want to be… who I am anymore
There’s got to be more in life to live for
I hope it’s not too late… to step on the brakes
Stop, think, turn my life around

I don’t have to… live this life anymore
There’s so much more in life to live for
I’m gonna be… somebody someday
That’s right, I’m gonna start… today
Today.

“Believe” Jules & Jules’ Mum

Jules:
It seems like only yesterday
When I was trying just to find my way
In a world that doesn’t understand me

Jules’ Mum:
I was once like you, young and confused
Never knowing just what I should choose
I’ve made so many mistakes in my life

I never thought I’d have a chance to be free

Jules:

I never believed anyone could ever love me
Jules’ Mum:
Just believe… like I believe in you
In everything you do
‘Cause I know you’re better than who you think you are

Jules:
Just believe… like I believe in you
What you said to me is true
‘Cause I see the pain that life has put you through

Jules’ Mum:
No matter where life will take you
I know that you will more than survive
‘Cause I believe in you

Jules:
I believe in you

Together:
I believe in you

2008-03-15T03:58:00.002+08:00

hmmm.
went to catch step up 2 this afternoon.
it was nice!! at least for me.liked their dance..
been wanting to get dance lessons or sumthing like that..
but was lacking the company.=(
no matters..

as most of u have known, thx to sherman, ive been exposed to musical theatre stuff.
or shld i say sumthing related to that and get to know nice people..
i dont know but im always in luck.i get to mmet all the nice people..=)
its really been fun i shld say..
just by listening to their dreams and watever they wanna do,
really makes me wanna go further on with them tgt..
but yea.. just as sherman and i said, reality slaps u right in the face..
it's really not easy to be working in that industry...
bahh.. dont wanna get too emotional with anything. so i shall stop the stuffs here.

hmm.heard loads of life experiences from the others,
made me feel im the luckiest person around..
i rarely get into big problems, be it with people or with work or watever it is..
happy-go-lucky as they say i am?? i dont know, but i guess its true to some extend.
watever it is, i would not wanna miss any chance of working tgt with them in the near future.
=).

2008-03-12T02:17:00.002+08:00

sighs.. im getting tired again.
this is like one of the days where ure so damn tired, u feel like giving up everything.
i kinda like got bored of life.i suddenly lost the meaning of living this life.
there's like.. no motivation for me to work the hell outta me..
time's passing by so quickly.then eventually it will come to a time when alot of my friends will be serving NS.
and i will soon get my reply from NUS and NTU.

i so wanna take a break..away from this busy , fast-paced life..
to a slow, relaxing week by the sea..how cool can that be.XD

ive been wasting my LIFE sleeping and doing watever shit that ive been dreaming of doing now.
give me some time.after im done with all these craps.
i'll be back to the life YOU wanted me to live.
sorry but im not trying to accuse u for that. i know its for my own good.
but cant i take a rest and enjoy my last few years of teenage before i actually go into working life?

sighs..to be honest, u shld try putting urself in my shoe..
imagine going back to indo, and leaving ur friends back here in singapore.
and wat am i supposed to do back there?
wake up in the morning, go to office, factory, learn how things goes.
and sooner or later i'll be running the business..
seriously this is wat i've always wanted to tell you.
"if u didnt send me here to study, i would have friends all over in jakarta by now.
u want me to take over the company? no problem man.sure will.."
"but now that ive spent almost more than half of my life here, ive lost contact with all my childhood friends there. and now my friends are really here in singapore."
"u said. family is more important than friends. i agree with that, sure i do.
but can u imagine if i were to go back and work, wat would my life be like??"

sighs.. i dont know wat else to explain to u mum, dad.

2008-03-09T01:05:00.002+08:00

heh! a happy birthday to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
weee!!!
finally!! =))
im 20!! which means im getting old alr.
hahahaha..

aniwaes.. thx Aaron,Ahblack,Alex,Hongzhou,Jason,Jiajing,Kennedy to be with me on my birthday eve.. was a rel fun day man!!
tho everybody go so dirty and smelly..=)))

2008-03-02T02:00:00.002+08:00

kay..so finally after the cramped schedules of rehearsals..
the musical play has finally ended.
hooray for the success of "Blue Willow House"
urgh the photos are'nt with me. will be posting them up when i get it for memories.=)
fun production indeed. get to meet really good singers like ashley(sherman's sis) , juz for his powerful voice, dhania for her superbly nice voice.^^
hip hip hooray! i will miss those guys for sure.
sorry didnt invite anybody for the play cos when i wanted to it was kinda late alr.hee, oops

another one's coming up REAL soon. its called "I Want To Be a Star"
so far the confirmed cast are : ME(as joe), Ashley(as joe's mum), Sherman(as joe's teacher).
i'll be singing in this one!!weeeeeeeeee.so happy=DD
dont know if i can invite poeple to the musical cos i think it will be a short one and will be acted in schools. we're like gonna have a tour of a few schools. cool uh!

ohya.have to thank Mr.ALEX WANG for everything.=)

“Me” Joe
I’m always hearing people tell me
“This is who you ought to be”
Everybody seems to know where I should go
Who I should be

I’m always seeing people who live
Lives according to what others say
Everybody’s trying to be somebody
Like somebody they know

Will I truly be happy if I became
That person who you wanted me to be
But I thought life has no guarantees
Shouldn’t who I be, be left up to me?

I don’t know who I am or who I’m gonna be
I know that I’ll be somebody great… but not today; you’ve got to wait
‘Cause today, I’m still confused about who I’m gonna be
Though it seems like everybody knows

I don’t know who I am or who I’m gonna be
But I’m not letting that stop me from going to see
What this life has to offer, every possibility
‘Cause in the end, I’m not everybody
I just have, just have to be me.

2008-02-25T22:33:00.006+08:00

its been awhile after my exams ended.
have been spedning my days out almost everytime.
wont be able to find me at home much, except my sleeping times.=P
heehee.
for some other thing, it also has been going on for some time.
i dont know if it's going on the right track or not,
but i guess there's a slight improvement?? i guess?
i dont know ar!!sigh.

dont let it affect me dont let it affect medont let it affect me.
i'll still be ME watever happens.lalla.

birthday's coming real soon..
but all those things that i thought could be planned just cant go on.
cos the chalets are all fully booked.sucks.
dont know wat i gonna do on that day too.SIAN NESS

my new WISHLIST: (muahahaha)

2008-02-19T04:10:00.003+08:00

anw to that sumone:
hmm. if ure reading this,
i guess u might understand somethings about anonymous.
it's not that i don't know..
it's not that i'm lazy to ask..
hmm. i really dont know if i should say this or not.
cos from wat i learned,
there isnt anything called dont care or ignore..
unless that person really hates u to the core..
hmm.im quite sure she wont do that to u..
if it really comes to the worst, she still treats u as a friend, right?
this is wat i always tell myself,
"don't put too much hopes to things, let nature takes its own course, and get prepared for the worst."
u will have some upset times for sure. really really have to try and overcome it urself.
like how i did previously.
dont let this affect too much on ur life. try and enjoy urself.
do things u like to forget, or maybe write all ur feelings down somewhere.
it helps.
just wish all the best to everyone, esp u.=))
smiles!!

2008-02-17T03:32:00.003+08:00

What a day i would say..
finally, a day out with my beloved team-mates..
was G-R-E-A-T..
all those time ive been keeping myself at home,
all those time ive been keeping my mouth shut,
trying to squeeze infos into my brain.....
i simply cant stand it anymore.. XD
it was a day of noise and fun visiting one another's house.
=)

Celebrations one after another at Old Trafford when i reached home.
supposedly a big FA cup 5th round match..
Manchester United - Arsenal.
u know it, i know it, everybody knows it..
was goals galore for Red Devils..
final result : 4 - 0

Go Go manchester United..Win the trebble again!

Cant wait for training to start.

Cant wait to get my driving license.

*immissingyou

2008-02-14T18:51:00.000+08:00

and i hereby announce that i'll be free in 16 hrs.
last paper tmr...
and i dont have the mood to study at all!!
die.

2008-02-14T02:33:00.003+08:00

got bored of studying!!
really really so f-ed up..
tmr's my paper but i know im gonna lose 15 marks for sure..
wat a hint the lecturer gave.JENNY U FUCK UP SHIT.
why dont just ask us to memorise the whole book of hundres of pages.
her hint :
"there will be one 15 mark question, from either tutorial 12 or tutorial 13."
ok, so a tut consists of 6 questions.
sadly to say, these 2 tuts are fully theory..
the worst thing is that, i tried writing the answers for each of the questions down on foolscap.
guess wat, it took me 2++ hours, JUST TO COPY the answers from the text book.
EVERY SINGLE QUESTION ANSWER TAKES UP ALMOST 2 PAGES!!

darn..ask me to memorise so much things just for that 15 marks??
dream-on..even if ANYONE tried, no one would get the full 15 marks i guess.
JENNY U SUCK TO THE CORE.

2008-02-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

spent chinese new year with my family back in my country.
wat a new year i would say..
been raining heavily days before the chinese new year and places were flooded.
my cousin even came over to my place to stay cos their area was flooded up to chest level.
how MAGNIFICENT.
ive never seen a flood of that high before.even till now.
anw, luck was good enough and the flood went away a day or two before my flight back.
ohya, i forgot that my passprt expires on 10th jan 2008 and i almost couldnt fly back to indo.
heehee.how careless..lucky didnt get fined as an illegal immigrant .=P
was settled at the airport and i could fly back to get my angbaos!haha.

life in indo is really nice..ohyea.i might be going back again soon for my driving license!
heehee..think 1 month is wat i need to get an international license from there.
get a private guy and have lesson every single day.=x
NICEE..

anw.my total angbao was in millions of rupiah.LOL.
i lost some of my ang bao..hah.got stolen by some kids that went to my room during their visit.
urgh.nvm.=)

tmr's exam day..and i havent prepared much..DIE.
must chiong alr...and i havent applied for Uni!
soon sooon.

arghhhhhh.exams just suck

misses

2008-01-27T22:51:00.000+08:00

exam starts tmr for some...
best of luck for all!! =))
better not fail hor!!! hhaha..dont repeat!!=X

cant biliv poly life's gonna end soon..
3 years in there's been fun.
loads of happening around..
loads of growing up done..

but some things just dont change..
my name's still DENNY! HAHA.
still the messeduppieceofshit..
still the WAT.A.NABE..

ciao to study!

2008-01-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

exam date is nearing!! zomgosh!!
which means im graduating soon too.
urghh..i seriously dont have any mood to study now.
im having like piles and piles of un finished assignment..
all to be handed in before the semester end..
guess i'll have to stay at home this weekend to finish up everything..

i wanna get my Wii back!!
i sent it for a mod and havent gotten it back yet.
its been a week alr..when when when when when when when can i get it?!?
i wanna play all the games!!!=X

hmmm..hafta start saving money for the coming holiday.
lalala.

wishes*

2008-01-24T02:20:00.000+08:00

so i had some spare time,
and so i went to search for (pursuit of happyness) (yea it's spelled that way.)
it's a movie that i wanted to watch like ages ago..
nice movie..really..super touching..
esp when he finally got that job, he was tearing while thanking the bosses.
i wish every dad in the world would be like him.
chris gardner is his name..

2008-01-19T02:43:00.000+08:00

thai trip confirmed..
=))
shop till i drop!! hahhaa.

birthday wishes!!! i know its still like 2 months away, but i cant wait for it to come..=P
gonna turn 20 years old so let me have 20 wishes pleaseeeeee.
haha.

1)TO GET INTO NUS OR NTU!!!((then i can have my own mazda3..woohoo!)
2)driving license!!(then i can drive my own car!!hahaha.)
3)for the others to be as lucky as me.(im so lucky to have almost everything i want, so i hope everybody can have wat they want.=) )
4)to keep in contact with all my friends!!(they're the ones that add colours to my life.)
5)stay in singapore even after i graduate.(sighs.taking over a company?? i dont think im up to it.just wanna live a simple life.)
6)less stress!! (i dont wanna get old too fast.=P )
7)my parent's business to get better (so they dont have to work that hard..its been almost 20 years.)
8)my room to be tidier (it's a MESS!!)
9)continue playing volleyball?? hope so.
10) stay healthy!!
11)abit weird but anw,strike a lottery, can get loads of money, let my parents retire and come over singapore to stay.HA HA HA.
12)can start up my own business (earn money earn money!)
13)my uncle toget his business back on track.
14)my cousin to be more filial to uncle and aunt.
15) MY OWN CREDIT CARD!!! =X
16)MAN UTD to win the trebble.
17)money money money!!heehee.
18)everybody to be happy! =))
19)be with a special sumone. heehee
20)mazda 3 SP. heeheeheee

hope im not too greedy??
kinda messy, but anw.
hope to have a nice 20 years old.
=))

2008-01-17T01:59:00.000+08:00

hmm..
things just goes on normally.
or should i say there's tenee wenee progress.
things that i said were somehow obvious in the 1st place.
voiced it out just to re-assure myself.
i longed for sumthing in return,
an answer? or a hint maybe.

awww.everythings's just a "so i thought"

my birthday's just a month or so away.
20th birthday wish?
loads of them.heee

2008-01-11T01:10:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile since ive blogged.=)
so here i am, again..lol
anw today's the last match im playing for nanyang poly.
sad to say even after 3 years, we didnt get any result back..
sucks big time..
all those dreams.haha.
anw i have super nice team mates.=))
thats one thing i can be proud of.
train harder !! and we'll go for open cup as NYP alumni.=P
i hope..

hmmm..volleyball days are over..time to study real hard!!
ehh..anw lets hope things turn out fine for me this time round.
wish me luck.

2008-01-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

Your EQ is 107

You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.

You're a bit moody, and sometimes you have trouble coping with every day life.
But you're by no means depressed, and your good days definitely out number your bad days.

There's nothing really wrong with your life, but you may not be living up to your actual potential.
Negative emotions can be a real drain of your energy, so make sure you have them under control.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2007-12-31T04:57:00.000+08:00

let's see..
it's been 42 houurs since "u know wat".
and im starting to feel a lil bit weird..
it's not like we contact each other every single time..
to know she's away, just doesnt seem right.
-.-

gonna start sch very soon..
the feeling sucks!!
i hate draggin myself out of bed every morning just to go sch.
argh..i have a half day school later..
die.
and i just came back from cycling trip.
the 1st time im experiencing drag racing right in front of me.
the smell of burnt gas.urgh..
super scary too.
lalala..
im dead meat..i got sch in like few hours time and im still not sleeping.=P
bahh. i dont care..

imissyou

2007-12-20T04:05:00.000+08:00

look at the time people!!
its 4 am in the morning and i cant sleep yet..
can feel how happy am i??haha.

guess "yesterday" was my best day after "u-know-wat" day..
its been so long.3 months, half a year, and now almost 3/4 of a year.
im happy that everything has happened.
not that i purposely wanted it, but yea im glad enough that things happened.
made me an even stronger person and a happier person.
ive learnt that no matter wat happens, life still goes on and u have to face it bravely.
everything will go fine in time..
=))

so yea.i went to catch the alvin and the chipmunks for the 2nd time.
cos i simply loved their songs!!haha.uber cute!!
and this time round with a different company.
a special one to me.=)
u know who u are.
anw if ure reading this..thx loads for the day.=))
im missing it alr.=P

Chat box

2007-12-14T20:05:00.001+08:00

Get Your Own Chat Box! Go Large!

2007-12-14T01:53:00.000+08:00

2nd paper was fine.
i think so..
hope my grades will be okay..
hmm..
tmr's the last day of my tests..=))
freedom afterwards!!weee!!

i went to watch the girls' friendly match..
they didnt do really well, so yea coach was kinda unhappy for awhile.
hmmm.jiayous to all!!
and..i was the same again.
me being the scaredy cat, stayed aside without daring to approach to talk or watever.
sighs.when will i stop being one..

horoscope said things are going on the right track.
i hope so too.

2007-12-13T02:30:00.000+08:00

1st paper of my common test has already ended..
and it sucked totally.
that freaking lecturer of mine..
dont know wat she is thinking..
she told us that "blah blah blah" will be coming out in the paper..
but guess wat, her tips are all wrong..
FREAK HER.freaking cheena lecturer..
i heard that this is not the 1st time she is "sabo-ing" the class from another lecturer.
gosh..wat a lecturer..cheena lecturers suck to the core..
wat red korean handphone that those kawaii girls are using..
wat hand made glass that costed her few grands..
dont know wat else she wanna flaunt to the class..
these are all that she talk about during class..
urghh.. cant stand it..

tmr's the next paper and im so not prepared for it..
i "guess"..
im gonna wake up early tmr and go to sch to study just like how i did earlier.
studying in sch really is much better.
due to less distractions and such.
wish me luck.

so im all back to the usual me again.
the same old in-confident one.
duhh..dont know wats seriously running through her mind.
does she even think that im just playing around??
sighs.when will i dare to speak up to show how i feel..
and will i even get the answer that i wanna hear??
heh.its so not happenning for me right now..

what would life be in 5 years time?
i can only picture you and me.
or at least, thats wat i hope...

i will never let you fall

i'll stand up with you forever

i'll be there for you through it all

even if saving you sends me to heaven

cos you're my true love.

2007-12-04T00:15:00.000+08:00

lonely i'm so lonely,
i have nobody...
i on my own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for the whole week!!!!!!!!

my relatives going hong kong for holiday!!!
hahaha.

HOME ALONE FOR 1 WHOLE WEEK... let's see how i die from it.=X
loads and loads of misses for her for im not seeing her for quite awhile.
=((

wish me luck for my coming common tests.
im gonna study hard i promise!

2007-11-28T01:44:00.000+08:00

tmr's wednesday again.
time really flies..
i wonder how am i gonna spend life 10 years later.
bah.slow down the time please.
tmr's formal wear..
gonna wear like some uncle again.suckss.

i saw her today!!
happy happy!=)).

2007-11-26T02:53:00.000+08:00

hmm.woke up very late today.
thats a reason why im still awake at this time.
i cant fall asleep!!hahaha..
went to buy my shoe after i woke up.
cos my old one was EATEN by ANTS!!!
hahaa.nahh was just kidding.
i left my shoe near a rubbish bin during training,
so i guess sumone dripped sweet things inside or wat.
so after trg,
it was infected by ants, thousands of them, millions of them!!
SCARYYYY.

hahaha.yepp.
so i went to funan to check which shop does sell computer parts seperately.
yep found 1 and their pricing was not bad.
so i guess my mum's"just nice come" vouchers can be used there to buy my new computer!
WEEeeeeeeeeeee!! time to celebrate!!
still not enough tho, hafta top up few more hunred to get everything.
S$1100 vouchers still not enough.=x..heehee.getting greedy now.
muahaha.oops.

ohya!!i saw this ad for singnet's broadband..
sign a 2 year plan and get a Wii and wireles modem with it!
SUPERBBBBBB..this chrismast gonna be so fun!!hahaha..
new computer, new broadband account, AND A Wii!!
LOL..
my house's gonna be empty for a week !!!
5th dec to 12th dec!!who wanna come ?!?
=PP

some things just seem to be coming nicely now..
but some still left unsaid.
please let this "sumthing" be fine.
i hope.

2007-11-25T01:07:00.000+08:00

yepp and again im writing this before i go to sleep.
things seem to be coming to a point.
where i hope it'll be fine, i hope it'll turn out fine
and everyone will be happy and i'll be happy.
turns out to be the other way.
if its true or not, i dont know.
but i see sumthing bad coming.

good or bad i dont wanna care anymore.
maybe i was just trying too hard.
just let it be.

2007-11-22T02:32:00.000+08:00

still couldnt forget how well i spent the day.
just simply couldnt get it off my mind.
=).
i loved today.
tho it wasn't the most fantastic amazing day.

for the 1st time,
im spending so much time together.
even tho i didnt really speak up much.
having her in my sight was just more than enough.
some things that im thinking may just sound so dumb.
every single time i think of it i cant help, but smile to myself.
still couldnt "get her reply" to my hints.
be it be good, be it be bad..
i just hope for the best.=))

im missing you more than ever.

2007-11-20T02:39:00.000+08:00

been so moody today, which means people are getting on my nerves easily
a result of playing too much of manhunt?
bah.hope not. i guess im just tired. i need more sleep.
seriously.i havent been resting enough for my body.
aching everywhere.injuries everywhere.

AAAs called me up and asked me to go down for product training on some day.
its for the coming coputer show.i cant make it for weekdays, they said okay.
and...now i rem that i cant make it on the 1st of december.
my far relative's wedding!!!for like finally he's getting married.LOL.
when's my turn?!?=x
oops.

tmr's guy's training, hope my form gets back..
i havent been playing well since sunday.
die!!!train train train!!
saw ivp's fixtures...sucks like hell.
got a match on saturday too.bah. it sucks.
new year's coming!!!
who's gonna celebrate christmas and new year with me.
book me please.LOL.=x

u're being missed girl..

2007-11-19T02:36:00.000+08:00

"I can show you I'll be the one.
I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven."

just when can i openly tell this to her.
yes, this song makes me think of that special sumone.
walked into my life and changed it all.
you're just more than amazing.

spent my weekend playing vball mostly.
went to sentosa on saturday with the guys to "tan" a lil.
i didnt get the sunburn i wan cos we were too late when we reached sentosa.=X
woke up late on sunday. so spent lil time on the computer and went off to play vball at ccab.
kinda sucky i would say..their gay-ness aura made us feel super uncomfortable.
eeeeew.

got nth much to say anw.
ive been sleeping late these few days.
making me feel damn tired then next day when im in sch.
hafta change my body clock back to normal soon.
i supposedly gave a very big hint somehow.
she reacted kinda normally, not giving me much hope or watever.
but yea.i guess she knows how i feel towards her by now.
soo.i'll just try harder.=). u're being missed.

2007-11-14T00:35:00.001+08:00

arghh.
nights are getting boring nowadays.
and im kinda tired of getting home late alr.
i'll try to go home as early as possible next time.
LOL..because i miss my BED.hahaha.

been so tiring ever since sch started.
havent had any breaks or holidays in between..suckss.
im so looking forward to the coming holiday..
i wanna go genting!hahaha.
there're like loads of stuffs that i wanna get.
die..
haha..hmmm..

ohya..i got a wound on my arm that look like the playboy rabbit.LOL.
its not a tattoo please.haha.
quite funny la.weird that the shape came out this way.

anw i needa go do my resume alr.siann.
YES I SAW HER JUST NOW!!weeeee.super happy arr..
i can see her on thursday!!wee..looking forward.

2007-11-13T01:34:00.000+08:00

rawwrr.
lol..the blogging spirit been down lately..haha.
everybody seem to be too busy with their own stuff and not updating their blogs at all.
lalalala.
ohya.i just got my lost part of my skate.
so im back to BLADING, SKATING LATE AT NIGHT!!hahaha.
guess wat, i was so engrossed with the hockey stop that i tried the night i got it.
ooooooh.so satisfying..i could even smell the burnt rubber wheels!!
HAHA!my gosh.been like almost 2 months since ive played.
wooooooh.
burn the rubber baby!!ooooooooooh..
so i tried the powerslides and other slides..
super rusty..fell down afew times!hahaha..DAMN never been so FUN..

so yea.i somehow hinted to her how i felt..
she seemed fine with everything..
i PRAY with loads of hope..that everything will go on fine..
=))..ure being missed girl. see ya soon please..
i can't stop thinking bout you.=P

2007-11-07T00:07:00.001+08:00

just as i wished i could have a nice day tmr,
the horoscope gave me some hope.

The Bottom Line
Today offers you choices, so pick the path that offers you the greatest challenge.

In Detail
Every day offers its choices, but today is more than just a series of small decisions. Today is a fork in the road in one of your relationships. It could be regarding your role at work, a struggling friendship, or a developing romance. When you're asked to choose or commit to a direction, pick the path that offers you the greatest challenge -- you are ready to go there. The first steps may be frightening, but you'll gain a purposeful stride sooner than you think.

hmmmmmm..
ure missed.

2007-11-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

we may not meet each other alot,
may not talk to each other alot..
all the hi and byes..seem to stay deep down in my mind.
even from all those conversation we made.
i felt so inferior as compared to others.
just, IF only she gave me another glance.
even if it's a sec or so,
i could be happy for the whole day!
just that lil bit of ignorance or anger from her,
could make me go downn, can even hardly breathe.
why is that, if only i can get to watch her, get close to her..
i could feel im going thru the happiest moments of my life..

LOL!why am i writing this..
if she were to come across my bloggie..
dont even know if she knows that im writing about her or not.
sighs.
i hate myself

2007-11-04T03:26:00.000+08:00

sighs.
im like stuck here for more than an hour alr.
not really thinking of wat to write.
but just that i dont know how to put everything into words.
hmmm...
suddenly feeling very strange about everything.
die la..im losing my confidence alr.
or maybe i shld say i got no confidence to start with at all.
trying not to put too much hope into anything now.
help!!~